Journal Entry Nov. 11, 2023 

"I hate me. Like it

must be nice to just beat me

while I'm down.

I'm not worthy of 

anyone. Only as a rebound.

Maybe that's all I ever was.

I'm not good enough...

It's like God is making fun of me.

Dreams. Its like I will matter...

My own family...

Barely talks to me...

Im alwsys living in someone elses shadow."

These exact thoughts were always what i thought about. from a daily basis. i felt like after those many tips down the rabbit hole, i alwasy thought i was never gonna be anything more than just someone to use and abuse. 

the fact that depression has struck, even when i didnt even expect it coming, i was only making up scenarios in my head and begin taking necessary measures to try and forget, my Wonderland wasnt suppose to be builton the reality that it was suppose make me insane.

it was suppose to be my only escape from reality. My wonderland is going to help mold our worst realities and nightmares into something more than that. As a young witch myself, i am still learning the ways of the magical and wouldnt mind using this as another way to reach out to other witches such as myself to gain expertise on a lot of levels of their work and myown to find my place. as a gypsy, im learning more about this world...

i will post as often as i can and i will inquire alot of what i believe can help myself reaching out. more on here as a third party outlet from. this reality intp my world of peoms, fables and etc. lets all come together and make this an amazing experience for all of us!! 

SO MOTE IT BE AND BLESSED BE MY MOON BROTHERS AND SISTERS